Tuesday, August 31, 2004
Flood of Thoughts
Was feeling a little down tonight but after laughing with P and Aunty L, and praying together, i feel that the burden i was carrying roll away. God is so good. He never leaves me, even when i forget He's there. =)
supposed to go rest now cause im having classes tomorrow, but i thought i'll come blog about today, for d. usually, im to lazy to blog, but ever since d enlisted, i feel this inclination to come here and state my thoughts and daily happenings cause i know it means a lot to dd. i miss him. i miss my mum too, and my home, going out with her ... and everything. i'm really happy here, yet, a part of me, a very important part of me is in Singapore, cause everyone i love is back there.
hmm... D called tonight, i was so happy to hear the phone ring. this is because the moment the clock flashes 10:30 each night, my heart will do a little sink, cause i know that by 10:30, its lights out, which means that d wouldnt/cant be calling me that day.
And today, i was feeling a little down, and unknown even to myself, i really wanted to hear d's voice and talk to him. it was at 10:30 when i realised that d wouldnt be calling, did i really feel this little wave of sadness in my heart, which made me realise how much i wanted to talk to him, to let him know how im feeling, to hear him say he'll pray for me and to hear him tell me to pray.
so when he called today, at 10:34, i was really surprised and happy as well. Talked for about 8 minutes before we hung up. its always bittersweet when we hang up cause i do not know when's the next time i'll be hearing his voice.
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|N| 1:00 AM|
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Sunday, August 29, 2004
Silent Distance
2 days, and no calls from d. sigh... the distance might not kill us, but the silence certainly could.
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|N| 11:02 PM|
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Saturday, August 28, 2004
A Strawberry Convert
I've ALWAYS loved how strawberries looked and smelled, but i have never really enjoyed eating them due to their exceedingly sour presence. Maybe to others, it is not as sour, but as i have a very low threshold for anything vaguely sour, i can never stomach strawberries no matter how beautiful they looked or smelt. Today, when Aunty L boughta bunnet home for me, i looked at them suspiciously until she persistently convinced me that the combination of strawberries and sugar is absolutely gorgeous. tentatively i tried it, and i got hooked! its really pretty good! to think all these years of missing out on the good stuff. Sheesh! =) next friday, im gonna freeze strawberriew in the freezer, heat chocolate over the stove and dip the freezing strawberries into the delightfully sinful chocolate for a treat. Will definitely take photos for d to see all im up to. =)
well, i had better head back to work, its only for a 5 percent assignment, yet these so much work! =P
To dd:
You have no idea how happy i am, to hear ur voice and hear how happy you are, even though ure in camp. i thank God for His blessings in your life. =) love u dd.... hmm... check shutterfly when you get home k? =) i'll upload photos there for u =)
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|N| 7:34 AM|
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Thursday, August 26, 2004
Backrub Required
I'm having a terrible back ache, towards my left shoulder blade for some queer reason. i think its my sleeping posture that has to do with it. at this point, i would seriously appreciate a backrub, but the one person who can do it for me, isnt here.
hmm... i went out with L today. It was nice. He was late for a bit, and when he arrived, he had lunch and we chatted for quite a bit. before i knew it, it was 415! so we grabbed a bus and headed down to this shop which he wanted to show me, and along the way, i saw a rainbow. that totally made my day. it was gorgeous. after that, i headed home. i waited a terribly long time for the bus though! it was highly exasperating. i got home at about 630, and had porridge with a LOT of chilli for dinner.
usually im pretty upbeat and happy, but today, im feeling kinda quiet. i miss my d. a lot... i think thats y. on top of that my work is piling up and im in pain. the whole combination is killer. i hope i get a good night's rest tonight.
To dd,
Dd, i miss u terribly. i really wish u're here. i cant wait to hear your voice and see you again though it may be a while (approximately 2 months plus). Do take care of yourself and keep close to God yea. im right here praying for u. i love u d...
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|N| 8:23 PM|
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Saturday, August 21, 2004
Apart
I miss my dd.... .... =(
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|N| 8:51 AM|
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Friday, August 20, 2004
Food Glorious Food
Just returned home from dim sum at the Rising Sun with my aunt. Its her birthday this week, and i decided to give her a treat. Should be beginning to work now, but im feeling lazy, as usual. =) Wondering what my boyfriend is doing at this point. Still hv not heard anything from him... i wonder y...
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|N| 10:57 PM|
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Thursday, August 19, 2004
Connected
Finally i can connect to blogger again and just before my boyfriend goes off into tekong, the island of boys learning to be men. =)
Life has been good. Though its been absolutely crazy with work and stuff, its good, and im happy. Thank God for all His blessings in my life. He has provided for my every need. Sometimes even before i know of my upcoming need/s, before it even surfaces, He has already planned everything perfectly for me. God is good.
Right now, dd is on my mind. i wish i could be there to send him, to see him to hold him and send him off, but unfortunately it is not possible. But its ok, cause i know God is watching over Him. =)
To dd:
d, remember your 3 promises to me k. =) i trust that u will keep them.
dd... i will pray for u everyday. Keep praying and keep close to God k. Keep in contact with Jesus k. Keep talking to God. Talk to Him whenever u can and thank Him for the blessings and help He showers u k.
And d, whenever u meet with any problems, before u react, talk to God first, and seek His help and guidance and listen to Him k, and everything will work out well for u.
Dd... i surrender you into His hands and will always keep u in my prayers. I love u...
dd... it was the 19th today... and its barely 2 mths away from 5 years.... d... Thank you, for all these years. Thank you for loving me. i love u d.....
Love: me
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|N| 10:18 AM|
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Tuesday, August 03, 2004
Drifting Apart
It has barely been a week, and somehow i feel so detached from d. i dont know y. i make a conscious effort everyday to communicate but somehow it seems onesided. Don't get me wrong, i miss him terribly and think abt him all the time, but somehow, im not sure that feeling is mutual. somehow it seems that i am the only one feeling the loss. somehow it seems like he's happier without me. or should i say it doesnt seem to make any difference to him, that i am no longer around.
To dd:
=(
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|N| 9:16 AM|
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Sunday, August 01, 2004
Looking towards the sky here Downunder.
Its been a week since my dd has left me, to return back to the humid land we call home, while im left stranded here in the land of the kangas.
since then, it has been.... hmm..... good, despite the occasional pangs of homesickness, especially when i open my eyes in the morning and hear the quiet silence of perth.
i miss my family and i miss d. but i am happy. =)
i went to church today, and it was really nice. it was a really good sermon, and i met P there. She was so soo nice, she even offered to help me get a place in her company when i get my work permit. I am grateful and really happy.
after church, we had lunch at the faith home and headed back. i feel rejuvenated, peaceful and happy. looking upwards towards the blue and drizzly sky, i smile knowing that God holds my hand. =)
oh yes, today P2 came to church with us, and it was really nice having her around as well. we get along quite well and i am sincerely glad that she is here. talking to her makes me happy too. =)
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Note: From today onwards, in every posting i make, a
To Dd: segment is going to be introduced. and this segment is specially adressed to u d. =)
To dd:
i know that ure enlisting soon d, and in 19 days to be precise. dd i just want u to know that no matter hw far u are, and no matter how little contact we manage to have, u are always in my mind, in my thoughts and in my prayers.
as long as we try out best to contact each other, i believe everything will be ok between us. DO bring ur hp in, and any chance u get, send me a message ok... i promise to update and msg u everyday dd.
d, when things get tough in camp, never forget God is just a prayer away. As Brother David said in church today, Cast all your burdens over to Jesus and let Him lead the way dd. God will never fail u. Keep praying dd, never stop talking to God, cause He never stops listening. and dd, remember dont loose ur temper no matter how pple may provoke u k. always keep ur peace. let ur bunkmates be able to see the difference in ur life as a Christian and may u be a walking testimony for our God.
i love u sweetie. dont doubt me k when i tell u i do ok.
Luv: me
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|N| 2:09 AM|
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