Tuesday, September 28, 2004
The colour Blue is my middle name
Corny but true. These few days have just been bad, and dumpy. its a gd thing no one reads my online journal. its just a place where i state my thoughts and reflections and while doing so, place my life into focus.
it all began with a shocking and disturbing connection regarding someone i would rather forget. then came the tumbling assignments and the harsh reality of it, then came the intense stomach aches. then came e dumping of a friend, then came e terrible assignment grade, then came my boyfriend's nonchalant phonecall.
needless to say, its not gd.
But i do know that God has never left me, even when sometimes i forget He's there.
I pray for strength.
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|N| 9:42 PM|
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Monday, September 27, 2004
FED UP
Argh! so fed up by J. first she confirmed that we're gonna go down to the city to collect our stuff tomorrow. and prior to this we promise each other to go down to the Perth Royal Show for a gd time after all this crap these few weeks.
But beauty of beauties, FIRST - she tells me she's made plans with her aunt and stuff and she cant make it with me. Then she said she'll go with me another day, after i told her i thought we were going together. so ok, at first i was kinda upset and hurt, but now im ok, i understand, sometimes things happen.
THEN this happens: so i ask her wat abt our plans for the later part of the day, (its 1am we were supposed to meet at 3pm) AND HERE SHE TELLS ME OH YEA, SHE CANT MAKE IT!!!! cause her aunt needs her, tuesday can or not! arGH!!! if i didnt ask her, i wouldve just gone tomorrow and waited for her, when she totally forgot and never intended to turn up anyway! im fed up. this is not the way u treat a friend.
what can i say.
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|N| 1:13 AM|
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Thursday, September 23, 2004
TEST
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|N| 10:57 PM|
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Wednesday, September 08, 2004
Bring on the Appetizers
With reasons unknown to me, for the past week or so, i have had absolutely no appetite. Its crazy. the breakdown of the food i consume everyday is roughly as follows:
Today, for breakfast:
1. Cuppa soup
Lunch:
2. 4 Strawberries
3. half a cup of mocha
and for dinner, i forced myself to down some instant pasta.
Maybe i'm just stressed... anyway, i kinda welcome the weight loss. which reminds me, to go grab my weighing scale. => (the only upside to the entire situation.)
To dd:
I wish we got to talk more... but i understand y we cant, especially for these few days... i dont know y, but i feel kinda threatened by the lack of communication. maybe because im scared our feelings will fade away in time, without proper communication.
hmm... today's entry is filled with maybes.
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|N| 7:00 PM|
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Monday, September 06, 2004
Lipstick and strawberry shortcake
i'm stuck at home with an essay sitting squarely on my shoulders. absolutely dreadful. The thought of waking up to impending deadlines irritate me. I enjoy having freedom. the freedom to wake up and do anything i want and to go anywhere i would like to. im in a beautiful country with so many interesting things to do and see, yet these deadlines tie me down emotionally. until they are over and done, i feel this sense of undeniable pressure. the list of upcoming assignments are as follows:
Next week, week 7:
1. Tech and rpt essay - major bleah.
2. Mass com 2 test - argh, readings and more readings
Week after next, week 8:
3. Mass com 2 essay - arghHHhhHHh another one.
4. Consumer Behaviour test 2 - not again!!
5. Tech and rpt presentation
Week 9
6. Consumer Behaviour exercise
help. =( really need God's grace to get through these 3 weeks. =(
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|N| 5:20 PM|
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