Monday, January 31, 2005
Bugged by the Bug
Its been days, however i have yet to completely recover from the irritating bug that has plagued me for what seems like ages. Worse, i seem to have developed a cough, AND passed the virus to my sis. poor girl.
But today has been good, though the day started out not quite so appealingly. 1st i overslept, and missed church, then i was supposed to meet d, but he was tired, and i told him it was alright to cancel our meeting. But little did i know that it affected me inside. This is because, as the days grow closer to my departure, im feeling subtly and gradually a little sadder. This is especially so, when i think about how few the days i hv left to spend with d, due to NS, and the CNY commitments.
Feeling insecure, i questioned my standing in his life, how important i was to him, and voiced this out casually over msn to him, while chatting. But he was oddly silent, and i presumed that he was thinking abt it, just as he told me he was.
15 minutes later, i got a phone call from him, and i asked him y i received no reply for so long, and he asked me if i was busy. The next thing i knew, he told me he was outside my kitchen window!
Delighted, After i let him in, i asked him what inspired him to come so suddenly in a cab, all the way to my place, and his reply: "this is how much u mean to me", touched my heart.
We then headed out for icecream before he headed back for camp.
This simple act of his reassured me of his love, commitment, and most importantly, has reminded me, of how blessed i am.
By penning these words down, the next time i feel lonelyand down, far away from home, i'll know where to look, to remind me of what's waiting for me, back at home. =)
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Tuesday, January 25, 2005
Lemmings
Currently down with an irritating flu bug that leaves my throat scratchy, and my nose runny. terrible. Just when everything is sooo busy, i fall sick, perfect. I'm just really glad its after working yesterday, that i began to feel the first tinge of sickness. Maybe its the trauma of seeing the sordid side of the world yesterday, with a middle-age JERK of a man who tried to pick me up at work. Argh, if it wasn't because i had to bear in mind he is my employer's client from a huge important company, i wouldn't have been so helpless. At least i couldve given him a piece of my mind, or have walked off! I couldn't leave the site, cause i was the only one in charge of the events there. Terrible. URG, enough about him. Even thinking about him makes me feel like gorging out his eye balls and squiching them!
Nevertheless, life has been good. I miss my boyfriend terribly though. Even though i have been back for 2 months, through no fault of his, we have not been able to spend enough time together. I miss him. And the prospect of leaving again for so many months, in just about 2-3 weeks make me sad. Being apart is hard, but i know that if we can get through this, it proves a lot about our future. All in all, i'm grateful for having sucha blessing in my life.
Now, i seem to have an endless list of to-dos and things to purchase before i head back to koala land, thats extremely HOT right now.
1. purchase my specs and contact lenses
2. visit the dentist
3. buy my textbooks
4. purchase my indian mules
5. purchase my white shoes
6. purchase my white skirt
7. visit the doctor
All these are already going to set me back by a few hundred dollars, terrible. And loads more which i have to purchase that seem to elude me right now. Maybe its the medicine taking its effect.
Think i shall give myself some shut eye. In the meantime its specs shopping tomorrow! i really really hope i can get a pretty, funky pair that will remove the aunty look which i currently have with my hideous pair right now. =)
And D, whenever, where ever u see this, I love u. =)
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Monday, January 03, 2005
Loved =)
I've had more then 24 hours to process this, but still, it has yet to absolutely sink in. Darl gave me my belated Christmas prezzie on the 31 Dec, due to ns commitments, and when i unwrapped it, i couldn't believe my eyes, a
PINK IPOD MINI.
All i can say is, Thank u dd, for your thoughtfulness, for your love, for you. Thank you for loving me.
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